Goodbyes are hard...

Austin and I had to drop Brian off at the airport this morning, and it was so hard saying goodbye.  He had to be at the airport at 6:45am, so on top of just being tired from getting up so early, it was super emotional and of course I cried...a lot!  I dropped Brian off at the ticketing area and we said our goodbyes, and off he went to check in.  I started driving away and thought I got away without shedding a tear in front of him, and then the flood gates opened.  I maybe drove about 10 feet forward, before parking the car at the curb and waiting for him to get all checked in and sneaking in one last hug goodbye.  Thankfully it was early in the morning and the terminal was empty so no one bothered me while I waited.  

I couldn't help myself, even now as I type this, tears just seem to keep coming.  It's the hardest thing telling your best friend goodbye and going home without him.  We are usually used to doing this, we say a lot of goodbyes during the baseball season, but this is going to be the longest we have ever been apart, maybe up to 5 months.  And seeing him hug Austin goodbye and kiss my belly, not knowing if he will be able to come back for our daughter's birth, just killed me. We made the difficult decision of Austin and I staying behind for the sole reason that we want to have our baby here in the States.  I know the time will go by fast and we will get through it, but it still doesn't make saying goodbye any easier...